square one? london. alone. directionless. i've been here before and it's not a good place to be. would prefer hell. just kidding. seems like a personal hell to me.
was riding high in the summer, it was a good time. hadn't felt so happy for a long long time. i was on the top row, almost home. and then the dice came back to me and i rolled a six... and i landed on a snake... it was the perfect trap laid for me, as if fated... and i slid slid slid down to the bottom row... yet still it wasn't terminal, i could've retrieved the situation, but it was out of my hands... the dice was with someone else and i waited my turn again... and so i trudged back solemnly to square one.
feels heavy, this life. these emotions are weighing me down. trapped under too many layers of disappointments and misunderstandings. of which i can only blame myself. i took a risk, and it didn't come off. but no regrets.
just have to get out of this fucking pit of self-pity!!
good to hear from you.. well, not too good news.. but still, good to hear from you :)
ReplyDeletethanks! and no worries, the self-pity is gone! wow, this ego of mine is strong, really identifies with the pain of heart-break and clings on to it like it's life depended on it!! just had to remind myself as always: past is gone and the future doesn't exist. the only reality is NOW!!
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ReplyDeleteJust read about your Barca adventure and it sounds very exiting!
Im`going to Barca myself, in august to do some busking, with acoustic guitar and I´m really looking forward to it.
I was wandering if you might have a few advices, since it´s my first time?
Thanks and good luck out there
Tomas
hi tomas!
ReplyDeletethanks for the comment.
about busking in barcelona... well, it's not so easy as it used to be. first, you need to register with the town hall and then do an audition and then if you are good enough, they'll give you a permit to play. there are permits for the metro and for the streets.
but if this sounds like too much bureaucracy, then do what i did... just go to the designated places for busking in some metro stations and if no-one is there, just do your thing. most of the popular places are always busy, but there are some where it is usually free... probably cos not many people and not much money!
on the streets, you take a risk... if the police see you and you don't have a permit, well... good luck. i don't chance it on the streets, especially with a drum, especially in the centre. i've been told that the police will just take the drum, no questions asked. sometimes i play along the promenade by the coast, lots of people but the pickings are not so good!
if you plan to stay for a while, well try and get a permit. otherwise, the best of luck playing the game of cat and mouse with the city guards!!
any other questions, please feel free to ask.
drumroots